We lost our son on February 17, 2012 and it has changed our world. I am clinging to my family and friends to make it through absolutely every single day. The only time i feel anything other than despair is when I'm running, I think that is chemically supportive. The best part of running too are the supportive friends that have become more like family.
I miss Austin every day! I feel differently every moment and the weight of the fact that he's gone and how he past is almost too much to bare on most days. there are still so many emotions, thoughts, regrets and feelings going thru my head at any given moment that I truly want to SCREAM to let it out. I think too that is why I have turned to running in the past couple of weeks. It hurts, it makes it hard to breathe and I can control it to some extent by speeding up and slowing down! I have ZERO control over what happened with Austin, no control over his loss and the wake he left behind.
Today was a decent day coming off of the relay this weekend but still my heart is weighted, and I miss Austin, today, tomorrow and forever!
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