R.I.P. Austin

We lost our son on February 17, 2012 and it has changed our world. I am clinging to my family and friends to make it through absolutely every single day. The only time i feel anything other than despair is when I'm running, I think that is chemically supportive. The best part of running too are the supportive friends that have become more like family.

I miss Austin every day! I feel differently every moment and the weight of the fact that he's gone and how he past is almost too much to bare on most days. there are still so many emotions, thoughts, regrets and feelings going thru my head at any given moment that I truly want to SCREAM to let it out. I think too that is why I have turned to running in the past couple of weeks. It hurts, it makes it hard to breathe and I can control it to some extent by speeding up and slowing down! I have ZERO control over what happened with Austin, no control over his loss and the wake he left behind.

Today was a decent day coming off of the relay this weekend but still my heart is weighted, and I miss Austin, today, tomorrow and forever!

Crap

Been a long time since i visited this page. what happened to my photos? Ive decided I hate blogging.

Good Times

Its hard to belive what a good time this really was. 48 hours of nothing but carbs and running. I was in a van with four to five other people non stop all smelling a little more than funky and I loved it. What a great group of people and what a wonderful experience.  I am happy to being doing something that I personally love and hope that I can continue to live my life in a way that promotes health and wellness, spiritually, physically and emotionally. 

I have learned a great deal over the past six months of just how important it is, to LIVE.  I am increasingly happy with my life and LOVE where I am right now. I APPRECIATE my husband and my children and my time with them all. I am PROUD of each of them for very different reasons and hope that things continue to move forward for us all. 

I am truly looking forward to the next stage of our lives. With Dominick graduating this year and both of the boys looking to create their own lives, it opens up the door to great possibility for the next chaper in Glenn and I's Marriage.  Scary and Exciting all at the same time..

Bring it on :)

Tomorrow’s World: Article - Rise and Fall of Nations

Tomorrow’s World: Article - Rise and Fall of Nations

New Adventure

Transition seems to be the story of my life. I guess the same could be said for everyone.  The hubby is getting ready to take off for two months for his latest adventure. This time I stay behind.  It is a blessing for us to have this opportunity but I will miss him :(. 

11 Weeks to 26.2

We are coming down to the wire. I have such a great group of people in our group you can't help but want to be involved and stay motivated. It's hard to juggle everything right now, but I have no doubt that I can work it out and make it accross the finish line.

Today's the Day

I have been thinking about creating a blog to see how it all works and today is the day! Testing things out, we will see how it goes. Suggestions? Let me know.